Aaaaand I'm Back
I know, I know, it's been a whole month and some of you have been worried about me.
For the last month or so, something very odd has been happening to me. I've been feeling.... better. Yes, you read that right. Better. I've been... not depressed all of the time.
I've been more social, more outgoing, laughing more, smiling more, talking more, chirpier, you name it.
This has been really freaking me out, dudes! It feels like there has been a massive shift somewhere in my head. Like I'm just so fucking tired of being unhappy and stagnating and existing instead of living. I'm 34, not 84. I want to have FUN. And I've been having fun! Parties, dinners, you name it. My whole attitude has changed. I walk tall and hold myself straight when I'm out and about, I'm sticking up for myself more, I'm getting more independent.
And this will convince you if nothing else will: I've hired a personal trainer. Me. I've signed up for two sessions a week - and I'm LOOKING FORWARD TO IT. I've even been voluntarily eating healthier.
All of this also means that my outlook, my thoughts on life, the universe and everything are undergoing massive rearrangement, and it means that I haven't a had a quiet moment in my head for quite some time now.
IT'S A GOOD THING.